I'm listening to "Father OSA" by Styx... again. It's been forever since I listened to the Styx II album. I used to have it on cassette or vinyl -- can't remember right now. What a great song.

I had a bit of a breakdown this last week. I guess I do this every once in a while, but Christine observed that it's been a relatively long time since it's happened before.

My juggling skills are lacking and always have been. Ever since I graduated from college, I've had recurring nightmares where I find myself either halfway through a semester of school or two weeks from the end of the semester and realize I've messed things up horribly and there's really no way for me to fix things so I can pass my classes.

Since I graduated from school, I've wondered why I keep having these stupid dreams. I think I get it now.

I decided a week or so ago I needed to start doing some pro-active project management with all the projects I have been dealing with. As I sat down and tried to figure out the time requirements for each project and how I was going to spend my hours, I realized there was no way in hell I was going to be able to devote any serious time to any of these projects. This was a distressing discovery and no matter how much I contemplated the problem I was no closer to a solution.

Finally, on Wednesday, I guess my brain could take no more of it and insisted I just stay in bed. A couple clients were more or less freaked out by my unavailable status and I felt like crap about that.

Since then, I've been slowly getting back on my feet. I'm concerned I still haven't addressed the core problem nor have I learned how to better manage these types of things. My biggest problem is I don't even know where to start to change.