I’ve been having a crummy last couple of weeks. Stupid depression.

I’m going to try harder this next week to buck it. I hate how my moods control me. If I’m in a bad mood, I might as well be sedated. I’m useless. I can’t concentrate. I can’t work. And, most of all, I can’t seem to be real nice to anyone.

So, first off, I apologize to anyone who I’ve EVER treated badly because I was in a bad mood. It’s stupid.

Why have I been moody? Partially because work has been slow and the money coming in isn’t as good as it could and should be. It’s a dry spell. Small businesses have them, I know.

I’ve been trying hard to be a good leader, but my moods make it hard for me to be a good leader all the time. Half the time I’m great. The other half the time I’m all doom and gloom. I hate it.

Granted, I’ve learned how to deal with this depression crap a lot better than I could, say, five years ago. I just need to keep on it. It takes a long time to rewire years of bad wiring in the brain.

Now, if anyone’s reading this blather... Do you have any advice? This, of course, assumes you can relate to my condition. I know, it’s a stretch. Maybe I’m just a very self-centered prick.