There's just so much going on, it's nuts. Yet, I feel like I'm moving slowly- like I'm in some movie laden with special effects where a crowd of people move around me at 300% speed while I turn slowly at 33% speed. It makes me think of a scene from The Fisher King where Parry (Robin Williams) is trying to follow (and ultimately connect with) Lydia through a bustling crowd in New York's Grand Central Station. Suddenly, the pedestrian crowd — each on their separate ways from/to trains/subways/streets — begin to dance a waltz. They do this for a minute or so while Parry observes and then the clock chimes and everyone resumes their journey to their destination.

I wish I could say Iodynamics is doing well. If you compare our business today to what it was a year ago, and the year before that, you'd see we are definitely growing. Third quarter is usually a dismal time for Iodynamics' business and we're definitely not doing dismal. But, we're not experiencing the kind of growth I'd like us to.

Of course, I'm getting pressure from Christine to make it possible for us to either buy or build a house and to get out of the rut we've been in since I was laid off from About in April.

Christine would like it if I could just go get a job working for some big, anonymous company willing to pay me a competitive salary and provide good benefits. That sounds good, doesn't it? Of course it does. To do this, however, I'd have to turn my back on all the success we've had growing Iodynamics the last five months.

Operating a business is more risky than working for someone else, but there are rewards for those willing to take the risk and do things right. If we do things well, I could provide my family with a better life than I could working for a “competitive salary” for some big, anonymous company.

I need to collect my thoughts and organize them some more before I write anymore about this.

School

Maya's first day of school is tomorrow. It's official. A child of mine is in school. I have a kid in school. That's SO weird... and cool!

I hope she has a lot of fun.

LIF3

XMission is hosting a big Linux InstallFest on Saturday 27 September and Iodynamics is sponsoring the event. We'll be there all day to help people install Linux and learn more about Linux. It should be fun. If you're interested, check out the LIF3 website to learn more and register to come.

In Logan

I drove up to Logan tonight so Mike, Chadd, and I could do some Linux installation and talk about the upcoming XMission installfest. I'm going back to Logan Thursday afternoon to talk to a potential client/partner about a development project. With gasoline prices as high as they've been all year and my income on unstable ground, this is not fun.

Maybe we should just move back to Logan. Heh.

Alright. It's nearly 3 a.m. I'm goin to bed.